Art as a Byproduct

I would like to talk about the concept behind "Le Trash-Bag" and partly "Red Orchid" and "In the Ruins". These pieces were the beginning of me understanding something about the way I create. I understood that these pieces were coming from an emotional place. One outside of the tangible world of 'art'. For months now I have begun paintings with a subject or pattern and they evolve, or I should say devolve, into the paintings you see listed on my website now. I just wasn't satisfied so I kept painting, not til a certain visual was achieved, but until I felt emotionally satisfied/done with my work that day.

This led me to a realization. I wasn't achieving what I wanted from what I was creating because I was trying to create 'art'. I knew that creating to me meant something more than painting a subject or creating a cool visual, creating was something that I have to do! I need that emotional release that comes from making something in order to properly take care of myself.

I mean that what is left after I have had my emotional release is simply a byproduct, the way an orange peel is after you have eaten whats inside. "Le Trash-Bag" is a bit literal, but I think it needed to be in order for me to realize what was going on inside my head.

So going forward I am not saying I wont paint as a craft because I still enjoy doing so, but the reason for the eclectic nature of my collections is because of the different roles that painting plays in my life. Thank you!